i hate that we didn’t hang out as much as we planned, we spoke all the time too, i have a voicemail saved of yours. we spoke just about two days before this happened, we both got out of treatment, i asked her if she was still clean n doing good, we both weren’t. planned to hang. loved the way you said “ketaminaaaa”. it’s crazy i looked up to Melanie since fucking years back dude like i was in middle school and had the guts to finally speak to her only 3-4 yrs ago! windows98 days, ‘bitchiest’ days. i wonder what our spiritual connection is. i know it exists— but when two foggy souls come together it’s hard to tell what’s happening and my memories are so clouded. she posted a photo of us saying “klonokids”. i wish i could remember more
this video. fuck man she wanted blue eyes so bad i remember her putting in the contacts. eyes are a window to the soul and it’s just such a dim light, a short breath …. it’s upsetting
